a day of resting at home as im on MC yet, again. i did not want to. but i felt terribly sick yesterday. fever back again followed by flu and cough. i guessed im really unwell whereby i even went to the pantry yesterday and took a 1/2 hr rest. im seldom seen in the pantry if u ask my colleagues. i am only seen there twice a day; before i start my day, to put my stuff in my locker and end of my day to take along my bag and leave as fast as my legs could carry me. reason: i don't like to be in a group of unreal people. not that im anti-social. i just hate gossips. i hate to being forced to smile to unreal people. sometimes i don't even want to look at them just to say a fake "HI". well, they may think im proud - but im not. even people whom i thought i could trust made me harbour second thoughts about them.
there are only 3 people (excludes my family) in my life that i really trust most: my lovely boy and two of my lovely buddies. these lovely triplets are always by my side when i needed them most. really glad that god brought me to knowing them out of 4 millions of human beings.
each time i count my blessings and misery, i always feel disheartened and tend to complain, swearing deep down in my heart. im neither a millionaire nor my parents. i do not have a complete family like others. however, i should be glad that i have a sweet bf and my good-listening-ears friends, shouldnt i?
i guess i should just stop comparing and complaining..... otherwise, i will never be happy..... :)
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