Saw this interesting poster from someone's blog. (taken from Alexandra Hospital, in male washroom above the urinals)
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had a great dinner buffet last night at Hotel Phoenix. it's at somerset, besides Johns Little. reached there about 7.30pm. the rest of them had already started eating. immediately, after putting down our bags and stuff, me and fl went to grab our food. first, we took mee siam. the soup was extremely sweet. afterwhich, we made our own popiah. we failed in that. losers! we didnt manage to wrap the popiah tight enough, therefore, when we cut it, the first 3 pieces could not make it. but surprisingly, it still tasted not bad! haha. after that, we went to grab the rest of the food like cold dish (which includes smoked salmon, ham, mushroom in cream sauce, prawn)and others. i love all the food especially the smoked salmon (though i prefer normal salmon), prata with chicken curry and the durian mousse - fl said it stinks. -_-
oh ya! an amusing incident happened while i was getting the chicken curry for my prata. u wouldn't believe it. i sub-consciously walked over to a lady near me (whom i thought its fl!), and asked happily, "hey the curry enough?" she gave a stun look and replied, "huh?!" i apologised softly (feeling so paiseh). my face was burning hot! i quickly looked for fl and told her about it. damn, she kept laughing! worse thing is, that girl was sitting just right behind us! omg... what luck.. super blur me.. gee..
after eating, we took a few pictures with the whole group consisting of some nurses. i'm the only one from inpatient. feels so weird. but they really treat me like part of them. appreciated D for organising this farewell dinner outing for me. hope we will stay in contact...
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
just changed my blog template. cute or not? haha.. changed it cos i did some editing to the codes and i somehow messed them up. my entries are missing due to that. i had no idea how to fix them back therefore, the easier way is to change the template. good in this way also. new look for my blog. heehee. think i should try to create a template myself and not just steal others. so unoriginal. gee.
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
okok finally something to blog about..
two days ago, that is 19/4.. 1 of my colleagues approached me. ok, let's call her D. D asked, "i heard something. you got something to tell me? you tell me..." immediately, i knew what is it that she heard. cos minutes ago, another colleague of mine (let's call her W) stopped me while i was going to the washroom. the hilarious thing is she was brushing her teeth halfway, she asked (in mandarin), "carol, i got something to ask you." she sounded serious. i knew what was it from her look. someone must have spreaded the news to her. but i don't know who. don't wish to find out.
anyway, back to D's conversation. i said, "is it you heard that im leaving?" she said, "ya! why you never tell me? you are my friend. i very sad le." i was silent for a moment, not knowing what to say. i knew im wrong to hide it from her. i apologised profusely, explaining the WHYs. minutes later, tears fell from her eyes. at this moment, i felt wetness in my eyes too. but i didnt cry though i felt the urge to. my mind was searching frantically for the right words to say. however, all i could say was just three words, "hey you ok?" i kept repeating for a number of times. frankly, i was hurt. i don't know why i had this feeling. i regretted not letting her know till someone told her. haiz... i don't know why i didnt let her know. only god knows why. she's been sharing with me her secrets, but yet, this is what she get in return. i'm sure she must be pretty upset. ya, i'm bad, i know..... :(
after an hour or so, i received a sms from G. it read, "i heard someone is resigning from don't know 13C/D. you have any idea who?" i was stunned for awhile. why is it that suddenly 3 people knew about this. i replied G's sms, "who you heard from?" the next reply read, "you know who?" i guessed i should stop beating around the bush. i confessed, "i'm leaving." G's reply was somehow shocked, exclaiming like a little kid that he don't want to friend me already. i find this amusing cos it's been a long time since i last heard this.
okok, i had hurt two people. let me think if there's anyone whom im close to, yet i hid my 'secrets' from them. i can't think of anyone. i hope there won't be a third person coming up to me saying, "hey why you so bad, never inform me, blah blah.." but seriously, i really didnt mean to keep it from them.....
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
a day of resting at home as im on MC yet, again. i did not want to. but i felt terribly sick yesterday. fever back again followed by flu and cough. i guessed im really unwell whereby i even went to the pantry yesterday and took a 1/2 hr rest. im seldom seen in the pantry if u ask my colleagues. i am only seen there twice a day; before i start my day, to put my stuff in my locker and end of my day to take along my bag and leave as fast as my legs could carry me. reason: i don't like to be in a group of unreal people. not that im anti-social. i just hate gossips. i hate to being forced to smile to unreal people. sometimes i don't even want to look at them just to say a fake "HI". well, they may think im proud - but im not. even people whom i thought i could trust made me harbour second thoughts about them.
there are only 3 people (excludes my family) in my life that i really trust most: my lovely boy and two of my lovely buddies. these lovely triplets are always by my side when i needed them most. really glad that god brought me to knowing them out of 4 millions of human beings.
each time i count my blessings and misery, i always feel disheartened and tend to complain, swearing deep down in my heart. im neither a millionaire nor my parents. i do not have a complete family like others. however, i should be glad that i have a sweet bf and my good-listening-ears friends, shouldnt i?
i guess i should just stop comparing and complaining..... otherwise, i will never be happy..... :)
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Monday, April 03, 2006
alright i just submitted my resignation letter.. when i handed my letter to her, first thing that came out from her mouth was, "u also resigning ar?" it came to me that this kinda letter that came in a JH envelope became so familiar to her already. i was shocked initially but still managed to stay normal. she tore open the letter, skimmed through it, then moved on to ask, "so what's your reason(s) for leaving? i want to know." i told her first thing is im unhappy here, secondly, i wanna learn more things. but she 'persuaded' me to stay on to help her till i found a job. the conversation moved on....................
anyway i have made up my mind on leaving and i will. somehow i do feel sad when i saw tears in that pair of eyes of hers. tears of joy or sadness? i dunno... but im not exaggerating. why should i? that's the first time in my entire months in JH that i saw that look. that really set me into deep thoughts. im wondering how is she feeling at that moment... well, should i care?
though she treated me badly in the past and even now, i wont hate or curse her. well, im not one who will bear grudges. in fact, i must thank her for showing her true self. at least she's not hypocrite unlike others? (im just comforting myself. haha) i realised i have became stronger after dealing with some of the sucky staff here. i have learnt to speak up. people tend to bully us when we are soft. so i hope i learnt to be tougher when im in a new work environment in the future! wish me luck! ; )
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