alright i just submitted my resignation letter.. when i handed my letter to her, first thing that came out from her mouth was, "u also resigning ar?" it came to me that this kinda letter that came in a JH envelope became so familiar to her already. i was shocked initially but still managed to stay normal. she tore open the letter, skimmed through it, then moved on to ask, "so what's your reason(s) for leaving? i want to know." i told her first thing is im unhappy here, secondly, i wanna learn more things. but she 'persuaded' me to stay on to help her till i found a job. the conversation moved on....................
anyway i have made up my mind on leaving and i will. somehow i do feel sad when i saw tears in that pair of eyes of hers. tears of joy or sadness? i dunno... but im not exaggerating. why should i? that's the first time in my entire months in JH that i saw that look. that really set me into deep thoughts. im wondering how is she feeling at that moment... well, should i care?
though she treated me badly in the past and even now, i wont hate or curse her. well, im not one who will bear grudges. in fact, i must thank her for showing her true self. at least she's not hypocrite unlike others? (im just comforting myself. haha) i realised i have became stronger after dealing with some of the sucky staff here. i have learnt to speak up. people tend to bully us when we are soft. so i hope i learnt to be tougher when im in a new work environment in the future! wish me luck! ; )
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